Nerves.

I overcame my nerves three Saturdays ago. The pros and cons fought rapidly in my head for moments before my mouth blurted out what I really wanted. Yes.

Funny though, now I know that he's just as nervous as I am and while I'm still nervous and hyper-aware of everything that he does it eases me to know I am not alone in it.

Now, weeks later, I still sit, stalling, nervous, not knowing what to do. It still takes me that minute to bring myself the nerve to go to him. I'm not sure why it's so hard for me. For once it doesn't feel so wrong, the act. But something feels not right, not complete. I'm so confused but in such a knew way that I don't know how to analyze. I am most definitely at a loss. I'll just step back now and go to sleep.

Balance

I believe that balance is the healthiest way to live in everything. Unfortunately, my balance is compromised by myself more often than it is by others. I do believe that I live far more in balance than most, and that is something.

Everything that you put in your body effects the core. The things that don't are considered neutral. Many, many foods are either hot, warm, cool, or cold and if anything is taken in too much excess it will throw your body off balance. When that happens many people take medicine to mask the symptoms chemically. If they were to wait it out and bear the pain the body will usually correct itself over time. However, this natural process can be sped up by taking in foods that will counter-balance the symptoms one is displaying. Cooling foods can be taken in for feverish symptoms, warm foods for a chill, etc.

I find that most people these days are insensitive to how your body is feeling other than to feel pain. It is as if the normal mode of your system is white noise that is discounted, and no one can fathom the hum of harmony internally.